Today I am feeling a bit more restless than usual. I've been trained to be able to sit for hours on end and be fine. In foster care I would often sit for hours outdoors in the summer and listen to the birds and watch the traffic go by. Today I am finding things are not holding my attention. Only one thing has so far, the concept that perhaps a manic episode is a spiritual revelation where we realize our true egos, our true selves.
"The elated phase
kicks-in when some event has the bipolar person become vulnerable...it puts them
in their heart...which is an ego-collapsing situation. With ego out of the way,
they get in touch with their true self...their soul. Spirit then reigns, having
them feel incredibly powerful...AS IT MUST.
Doesn't it make sense you will be elated when your spirit reigns as your
self rather than your mind-based ego?"
quote taken from http://www.thespiritualkey.com/Bi_Polar.html
I encourage you all to follow this link to read more about this concept more in depth.
While I was manic I was very interested in religion and felt I had reached a sort of enlightenment. I had been practicing gratitude prior to my first manic episode, positive energy attracting more positive energy. I had been working out and working on myself as a person. I often wish I could experience the mania again because I was truly happy. However, I am hesitant to weine off my medications. Who knows what I'd be like.
This ego concept is definitely a one to consider.
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
Saturday, March 16, 2013
Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance
Hello everyone. Well I just wrote out an entire blog and it was inadvertently deleted, my bad. Let me try this again.
I'm spending this weekend with my wonderful girlfriend of 10 months. When I'm with her I have a sense of renewed energy. It cleansing. I know I'm with someone who accepts me for me, bipolar an all. That's wonderful.
I'd like to introduce you all to the Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance, DBSA. I actively go to my local chapter's meetings, and the program also offers live online support groups to participate in if you can't make it to a physical group. The program is for everyone, those with an illness and those who care about someone with an illness. The group provides peer support. I reluctantly started going to the meetings while I was in court ordered foster care. The facility I stayed at was a 24hr facility where you could not have a car or leave the premises whenever you wanted. Any outings had to be approved by a case manager or doctor. Luckily, my case manager let me attend the local chapter with my parents. At first it was just an excuse to get out off of the property, but the longer I attend the more friends I made and the more useful the group became. In fact, a roommate of mine from a stint in the psych ward attends my meeting. It was a pleasant surprise to see her. We have picnics and party's too so it's not always business.
A meeting starts with introductions and usually an hour long presentation pertaining to depression or bipolar. You may have a guest speaker as well, such as a psychiatrist, counselor, nutritionist, etc. The second half of the meeting, which is also usually an hour we break into small groups. Here in these groups we take turns discussing our past week, any struggles we've been having, or you can ask for other's opinions. Often people will share experiences with different medications and doctors. None of us are licensed professionals, however we can still share valuable;e information amongst ourselves and make friends and find support in those darker hours. Below is a link to my DBSA ambassador page. Feel free to peruse the site and if you feel moved to, please donate to DBSA through the link on my page. Thank you and have a wonderful night!
DBSA Ambassador
I'm spending this weekend with my wonderful girlfriend of 10 months. When I'm with her I have a sense of renewed energy. It cleansing. I know I'm with someone who accepts me for me, bipolar an all. That's wonderful.
I'd like to introduce you all to the Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance, DBSA. I actively go to my local chapter's meetings, and the program also offers live online support groups to participate in if you can't make it to a physical group. The program is for everyone, those with an illness and those who care about someone with an illness. The group provides peer support. I reluctantly started going to the meetings while I was in court ordered foster care. The facility I stayed at was a 24hr facility where you could not have a car or leave the premises whenever you wanted. Any outings had to be approved by a case manager or doctor. Luckily, my case manager let me attend the local chapter with my parents. At first it was just an excuse to get out off of the property, but the longer I attend the more friends I made and the more useful the group became. In fact, a roommate of mine from a stint in the psych ward attends my meeting. It was a pleasant surprise to see her. We have picnics and party's too so it's not always business.
A meeting starts with introductions and usually an hour long presentation pertaining to depression or bipolar. You may have a guest speaker as well, such as a psychiatrist, counselor, nutritionist, etc. The second half of the meeting, which is also usually an hour we break into small groups. Here in these groups we take turns discussing our past week, any struggles we've been having, or you can ask for other's opinions. Often people will share experiences with different medications and doctors. None of us are licensed professionals, however we can still share valuable;e information amongst ourselves and make friends and find support in those darker hours. Below is a link to my DBSA ambassador page. Feel free to peruse the site and if you feel moved to, please donate to DBSA through the link on my page. Thank you and have a wonderful night!
DBSA Ambassador
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Introduction
Hello everyone. I am a 28 year old business professional who was diagnosed with bipolar in 2010. After five hospitalizations, becoming homeless, and a stint in adult foster care I can honestly say I've seen almost everything. I went from making 50k a year to homeless relatively quickly. I hope to share my thoughts and feelings about bipolar and my personal journey through this blog. I want to help you learn about and live with bipolar. I am definitely not an expert, but I'm learning the ropes. :)
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